The Weinstein revelations,, A larger Abusive relationship, like the “family” I’ve tried speaking about since the 70’s

More and more I hear stories and reports of abuse and people having the same experiences that I and many other vulnerable, innocent children do in their own homes.

 I’m writing these blogs and making ‎video blogs on my youtube channel, April Watters, because I could not speak out about these issues for most of my life. Or, if you spoke it, I was guilted, shamed further, I was told to just “get over it”.

I’m writing this blog because people who are even more vulnerable than those abused by Harvey Weinstein do not get the attention‎ they so desperately need and deserve. People, adults today and many children who have it worse than I did, I am speaking out for. Child abuse and dysfunction in the “home” has long been too normalized.

The abusive “family” has spread like the wild fires and nothing has been done for millions of the most vulnerable who have no way to speak out. They become part of the problem.

Imagine this; those who are meant to give the innocent the support and leverage they require are the very ones preying on them instead. What is that creating? Like Climate breakdown, an human environmental disaster has been created for decades and those who are meant to be the future are being enslaved by very sick people. It happens on all levels.

Like deforestation, we have De Humanization. A total enslavement of the most vulnerable instead of those who have the support to go up against abuse of power, the succumb to it instead.

This is an environmental disaster on epic proportions. The women who have been abused by Weinstein speak of needing the job and not reporting being raped by Weinstein. A larger Abusive “family” scenario. With so many people being born to “familiesl , “parents” who can’t raised and teach their children to have some leverage and to resist those in power rather than bowing and “needing” them nature and health are being totally destroyed.

There are NO real adults!! No REAL mature, responsible humans and only adult children and preditors.

In an interview on Democracy Now Tomi- Ann Roberts described her encounter with Weinstein over 30 yrs ago when she was 20 in 1984, same age as myself, and the fight, flight or freeze response that occurs when faced with an abusive situation and person. She spoke about the psychological exit stradegy of putting the fault on herself who was not ready or up to what Weinstein wanted her to do.

This is the same Debt Economy I speak about and try to teach about the abusive “family”. So to not “poke the bear” as Tomi-Ann put it, she put the blame on herself to make her exit. This is what automatically happens to children in many abusive siutaions, not all. They “need” the person in power so they go into Debt and make the abuse their fault and bail out the abuser. This is such an important point for people to understand. The same as a body going into shock, the blood is taken from the parts of the body that the body can survive without, limbs, extremities, and send it to the parts the body can’t survive without like the heart, brain, lungs.

Due to our Disaster Capitalism system, this way of “relating” will continue to become the norm and accelerate like the wild fires in California.

A child is trapped in the situation of abusive “parents” and can’t leave unless someone intervenes. If not, the child’s energy and psyche are “bled out” and the child repeatedly puts the abuser over themselves thereby, “funding” their own abuse. Without someone there for the vulnerable, they will bleed out completely and be left with no sense of self. There body and soul will be taken over and used completely by the abuser‎. This is exactly what those in “power” want.

Louise Godbold expressed her experiences of assault by Weinstein and how she didn’t say anything because she felt it would be “career suicide” since she was trying to get a start in the film industry.

I just want to stop here and again point out the feeling of being trapped with no choice but to feel one has to put up with abuse if you want to pursue ones “dream”. Those in power take advantage of the dreams, aspirations and out right desperation of those trying to do what is their right in life to do,

I have to point out how this happens in “homes” by abusive “parents” exactly the same way. Sick people get off on having power and control over the vulnerable and take total advantage of the dependence of a person. In fact, the more someone in a “power” position knows that a person is vulnerable and despearte, the more likely they are to abuse the situation and the person. And that makes children a prime target.

The family, even if parents are not abusive but, lack the ability ‎to give their child leverage because they don’t have any creates desperate people primed to be abused and taken advantage of by the system. The firewall of Family has been eroded.

Due to growing up in abuse at an early age I was aware and on the look out for abuse where ever I went. I expected it since I was used to it and no relative or neighbor taught me otherwise. I was on my own; hypervigilant.

Louise Godbold was asked why women of assault carry the shame of the abuser. She responded by siting our societal conditioning, parenting and of being compliant.

This is what happens in “families” also. Children are trained to carry the psych debt of guilt & shame that does not belong to them from the toxic emotions of “parents” who use their own children the same way Weinstein did. ‎It’s all part of our debtors prison system. The same reason the Banks get Bailed out and the public gets Sold Out. People are not taught to stand up to abusers but to take on and carry the debt. There would need to be someone there for the vulnerable to teach them to stand up and give the shame back to the abuser.

It’s the emotional level of Texaco dumping pollution in the Amazon or the BP Oil spill.

Louise Godbold sited the Adverse Child Experience study and states that abused and traumatized children are more likely to be victimized later in life.

Louise stated that victims carry the shame because there is no one countering it. There’s no one on the victims side. Something I’ve been saying for decades.

She goes onto say how family and friends, thinking they’re giving you good advice tell you, don’t rock the boat and don’t get involved when that’s the opposite of what the abused need. They need leverage and encouragement to speak and stand up. It’s basic physics. An object or person in motion stays in motion unless acted on by an outside source. Weinstein gets all the momentum and clearing of the pavement for his abusive actions while those engaging in Right action get friction. It needs to be turned the other way around. ‎That takes conscious effort and work.

Louise spoke again about fight, flight or freeze and how we need to educate about trauma. What fight,flight,freeze illustrates is the level of human Climate Breakdown we’ve advanced to similar to polar bears having to swim longer to find ice.

We can’t allow abuse to be normalized.

Louise Godbold spoke of the healthy pain and anger that comes from not being believed for over 2 decades. ‎How she would have loved for someone to tell her that she was acting bravely in speaking out rather than being told to sit down and shut up, not to make any waves.

Well, people need to understand, we need the kind of waves made by those standing up against abussers and Not the waves made By the abuser!

Why do so many people make those standing up against abuse wrong and the abusers actions go unchallenged? I’ve asked this question for decades. Those around me seem to have the attitude that not standing up is going to solve problems when all it does is increase them. How did people get so disoriented and lacking in courage?

Irin Carmon expressed how courageous the women were who spoke out. ‎She spoke about Ronin Farrow’s attempts at getting this stroy of Weinsteins abuse published. She said the standard of corraborating stories is so high that it ends up revictimizing the victims. We have to ask ourselves why? Who is setting the standard? The abusers that’s why.

Irin Carmon said how Weinstein “bought off people who were an impediment to him”‎. This is what $ does. Creates a false reality disconneced from the real one because so many people put fake $ over truth and what’s right. Fake $ is creating a human climate breakdown because it is at the expense of real justice. It’s not just the earth’s climate being destroyed.

Irin said how Weinstein attended the women’s march in Utah and showed how people like Weinstein can use issues to cloak their misdeeds. Hiding their abuses in actions contrary to who they really are.

This is why I’ve practiced and talk about mindfulness, meditation and yoga which is all about looking close, paying attention and which is all about incorporating in nature’s process rather than skipping over it which is exactly what the $ system doesn’t want. Taking the time to look is the enemy of this system.

So, watch out for people who claim to be your allies, is her point. The same point I’ve been making about the abusive “family” for decades.

Then the co host of Democracy Now, Naimeen Scheike‎ read something written by Weinsteins secratary about the unequal power of herself in age and position as Weinstein. He a “10 and herself a 0”.

Again I want to get people to think about what abused children go through with their own “parents”. We simply do not hear about it and not enough is being done to deal with abuse in any environment. If older people and people in the spotlight are experiencing such blatant abuses, imagine what‎ horrible abuses children go through and have no way to express? I encourage people to watch Conspiracy of Silence banned Documentary on youtube.

“It’s the very abuse of power” that Weinstein liked in these scenarios, not that he liked pretty girls, Carmon said.

She then spoke of the actress, Ambra Battilana Gutierrez, who wore a wire for the NYPD and returned to Weinstein’s place to gain evidence ‎of harassment and got it only for the “prosecution”, Cy Vance to not prosecute Weinstein and receive 10k a couple of days later.

They are speaking about the exact issues children deal with everyday with abusive “parents” and have NO power to do anything about it. They are ground up by this system which lowers the bar for everyone else. Like human soil erosion.

I’m still trying to recover from trauma to this day. It’s a crisis that there is NO safe place and real help for vulnerable people who have been abused to go to. This is Nothing other than a Health Crisis and Psychological Climate Breakdown! It’s No different than destroying the planet. Plain and simple. If it isn’t countered, we will destroy ourselves.

Sundance Film Festival, Audrie and Daisy, The depiction of society’s breakdown

  Two teen girls in two separate states in the U.S., both sexually assaulted while passed out from too much drinking and partying, both bullied and harassed on social media. Both atetmpted suicide, one succeeded.
Sept 2 2012, 15 year old Audrie Pott, a Saratoga, CA Sophmore went to a party where she got drunk and passed out. Believing she was safe in the company of teens she knew since middle school, she was instead, sexually assaulted by 3 of the boys while she lay unconscious. The boys undressed her, wrote on the body obscenities in permanent marker, covered half her face black, drew on her breasts, wrote the word ‘anal’ on her back with an arrow pointing downward all while the 3 boys took pictures on their cell phones. When Audrie woke with marker all over her she had no idea what happened. In the next couple of days Audrie tried to piece together what happened. She asked one of the boys to delete the photos they posted. “I know have a reputation I can never get rid of”, Audrie posted before being pushed to take her own life 8 days later by hanging herself on the shower head at her house. Her mother found her shortly after.
 It doesn’t end there. Her peers mocked and bullied her ‎on social media for a week after it happened. ‎Audrie Potts mother Sheila told her story today on Democracy Now last week. She describes her daughter going to her friends house on the weekend as usual while the parents of the friend were out of town. Audrie got drunk and didn’t have control before she passed out. 3 of the boys then, took Audrie into another room locking the door and proceeded to take off her clothes, sexually assault her, marked her body with marker while taking pictures with their cell phones.
  “It was normal activity”, Sheila Pott said of her daughter going to stay over her friends house for the weekend. They had planned a party when one of the friend’s parents were out of town and had 11 or 12 friends they grew up with come over. Audrie got really drunk and passed out. The boys at the party carried Audrie into another room and locked the door. They took of her clothes, wrote obscenities on her body and breasts with a marker and colored half her face black. They “did things to her”, Sheila Pott said. They drew the word anal on her back with an arrow pointing down. They wrote suggestive, sexually degrading things and Audrie didn’t know any of it was happening. Audrie woke the next day with the aftermath, without her clothes and writing all over her. Audrie found out that day that pictures were taken of her while she was undressed. “Audrie was devastated”, her mother said, “She was a very private person, very self conscious of her body”.
 Audrie called her Mom to pick her up which was very unusual, it was usually her Mom that called her and said to come home. Sheila Pott said she didn’t see any evidence to think Audrie was assaulted.
 The following week Audrie went to school and had friends sleep over that weekend, things seemed normal. Sheila Pott picked Audrie up from school that Monday and asked Audrie what was wrong. Audrie remained quiet and her Mom kept pressing her to disclose what was bothering her. Audrie said she wanted to leave the school. “Did you get into a fight with your friends?” Sheila asked her, “I only have 2 friends”, was Audrie’s reply. Sheila Pott said she and her daughter were close and Audrie confided in her a lot and so did her friends. Things like teen drinking, being responsible, etc. Audrie went into the bathroom and a short time later her mother went to go and check on her. When she didn’t answer her mother broke the door in and found Audrie hanging fro the shower head. “I couldn’t believe this would happen”, Sheila said. “What happened, What went wrong?” The Sunday after Audrie’s memorial her mother learned of the assault when the Sheriff came to her house. One of the girls at the party who wrote a letter to the school administration who then, started an investigation.
 When asked if she thought the system failed her daughter, Shelia Pott said, “Yes”. The authorities were “upfront” in telling Sheila Pott that it would be “unusual to see any jail time” in juvenile cases. The boys go back to the same school. Class mates didn’t know what happened. Many believed Audrie was consensual.
“She was not conscious, she did not consent”, said Sheila Pott. “We wanted to clear Audrie’s name”.
 Audrie asked the boys she knew since she was a child, “she trusted them”, said Audries mother, to delete the photos from social media. Audrie felt like she had no control because she couldn’t remember any of it. Audrie felt that all the high schools in the area knew about the incident.
 The settlement for Sheila Pott and Audrie was Non Monetary. Audries mother wanted those who were involved to admit that Audrie was unconscious and was not consensual. The boys had to do 10 presentations admitting what they did to Audrie and apologize publicly. They had to agree to be in the documentary and ask the school if she could graduate with her class. “She didn’t ask for it, she didn’t deserve it, it’s wrong”, said Sheila Pott. “I would have liked to see a longer sentence. The message was were not going to take it seriously, to the girls and you’ll not get expelled and get a slap on the wrist to the boys”.
 The second story of Daisy Coleman, a 14 year old Freshman, was much the same except she was unsuccessful at committing suicide. She and a 13 year old friend were drinking when they were picked up by boys they knew. Daisy says Matthew Barnett sexually assaulted her while she was unconscious, while Jordan Zech, a star high school wrestler, took videos.
 Later on that same night, the boys dumped Daisy Coleman in her front yard in the freezing cold snow, where her mother found her, half-frozen and with frost bite, in the morning. Charges were initially brought and dropped against the boys accused, which raised suspicions the Nodaway County prosecutor was under the influenced that Matthew Barnett was a football player and his grandfather was as a Missouri state representative. Daisy’s mother, Melinda, began raising questions, and lost her job. Their house in Maryville mysteriously burned to the ground. Daisy was suspended from cheerleading and relentlessly bullied. People told her she was “asking for it” and would “get what was coming.” Daisy was hounded on social media, she was called a skank and a liar, and told to kill herself, which she tried to do, multiple times.
 When Daisy’s mother, Melinda, took her daughter to the hospital for the frostbite and red marks and “tears” on her genitals, the doctor informed Melinda that her daughter was raped and both Melinda and Daisy broke into tears.
 The Computer group Anonymous got involved in Daisy’s story and made a video condemning Maryville for not doing their job and totally mishandling Daisy’s case,
 I don’t know what most people think about a case like this and I actually fear knowing what most people think and feel. But, if they’re anything like the entire town that turned on these 2 girls, we’re in really big trouble. My fear is that so many people will become dirty and polluted that there will be no Clean people to appeal to anymore. Most people don’t think of Clean people the way they think about clean water, fresh air & clean food. I’ve bee talking about Clean, healthy relationships and their importance since the 70’s. People won’t find out until it’s too late, when crimes like these happen to people and they find there are not enough CLEAN people to turn to. The Sheriff, lawyers, the school, the judges, who told Sheila Pott, “It’s unusual to see jail time in cases like this”, because it’s a juvenile case. That blows my mind! In NYC we have kids in SOLITARY CONFINEMENT for utter Nonsense and NON crimes like jumping turnstiles in the subway, having small amounts of marijuana on them, a crime they “might” commit using Stop & Frisk. Also, Kalief Browder, a 16 year old black youth arrested for “stealing a backpack”. He spent 3 years on Rikers Island much of which was spent in solitary confinement. Kaleif was beaten by guards and inmates. Kalief attempted suicide multiple times while in prison. Kalief was held in Rikers Island WITHOUT trial or charge! When he was finally released he succeeded in killing himself ( he really was murdered by the system) by hanging himself out a second story window at his house using an air conditioner cord.
 The “Justice” system created a Debtors prison in a city near Ferguson, MI where it jailed people for not being able to pay bogus tickets cops wrote them basically, so the city can get $$. The entire economy of the town functioned off the $ they stole from the public and stopping them for bogus traffic stops.
 From Democracy Now;
 Last February 2015 more than a dozen St. Louis-area residents filed class-action lawsuits against Ferguson and another suburb, Jennings. The residents accuse local officials of creating a “modern debtors’ prison scheme” that targets African Americans with arrests and fines and then locks them up when they cannot pay. A study last year by the ArchCity Defenders found a large part of the revenue for several St. Louis counties comes from fines paid by African-American residents disproportionately targeted for traffic stops and other low-level offenses. In Ferguson, fines and fees were the city’s second-largest source of income in fiscal year 2014. Ferguson issued on average nearly three warrants per household last year — the highest number of warrants in the state, relative to its size.
 We have a SERIOUS problem in this country and world. $$ and nature/health are split. The privileged acting as Criminal and offensive as they want and getting away with it while the most vulnerable get raped, arrested, solitarily confined, killed, droned and t